Ahhh, it's comfortable in here. The sand is nice and cool and it's dark.
There's a world out there? Really? Well, I think I'll just stay in here for a while.
You see, in here Paige isn't doubled over in pain after she eats.
Last year the doctor told us that her gall bladder did not contain gallstones so the pain must be in her head. And, doctors are always right. At least they are while I am in my home in the sand.
If I come out of the sand I will have to fight. Again.
I will have to scream. IT'S NOT IN HER HEAD. IT ONLY HAPPENS AFTER SHE EATS GREASY, OILY FOOD. HER GALLBLADDER COULD BE SLUGGISH AND SHE DOESN'T DESERVE TO BE IN PAIN.
What happens if they do listen to me? What painful test will she need? Is it worse than the pain after she eats. I can keep on trying to be careful of what she eats. Can I do that for the rest of her life? What happens if one day the pain doesn't go away after 30 minutes? Will she need surgery? I don't want her to have to endure another surgery? Which is worse? Pain after eating or surgery?
Thank goodness I don't have to come out of this sand and face this issue.
Can someone tell me how to turn off that little voice that keeps on whispering, "It's time to fight again. Get your head out of the sand"