Friday, November 16, 2007

Resilience and Perseverance

A few months ago Chris (Chris and Vic) had sent me an article about resilience, thinking it would make a great post. Although I agreed with her, I was dealing with Paige's mental health issues at the time and was drained and feeling a bit jaded. As I sat down to write the post, I honestly couldn't clear my head and come up with an example on resilience in our lives.

About that same time, Doc Rob took on Chris's question and posted a response that was incredible.


Both Chris's question and Doc Rob's post left me feeling a bit angry at myself that I couldn't see this in my child. She has gone through so much in her 9 years yet I couldn't see through her severe OCD and statements of thoughts of suicide.


That all changed this week.

During a trip to the mall, Paige asked if she could try the rock climbing wall in the sporting goods store. We stood below it, looking up at the giant. It was Mount Everest and it was calling her. I agreed to let her try it and off she went.





Right after I took this picture Paige started slipping. She called down to the teen aged boy holding her rope, "Ok, I'm ready to come down."

I was so proud of her. She had made it almost 2 stories. I knew her hands must have been hurting.

"Nope. You're not done. Keep going." the boy yelled back.

I'm now screaming on the inside, "She has mild CP. She's got to be hurting. Listen kid, do you know how hard it was for her to yell down to you. Now let her down!" But, I kept my thoughts to myself and just watched her.

She went up a bit further and, just as I snapped this picture, she slipped.


I yelled up to her, "Paige, you can come down now if you'd like." Paige said nothing but the look she shot me said it all. I could hear her thoughts, from 2 stories up. You're embarrassing me Mom!"

When she first slipped she looked shocked, but only for a very quick moment. Then she started to swim. Yep, swim. In mid air. I was sure you could hear her giggles all through the store. She swam back to the wall and proceeded to continue climbing Mount Everest.



I started to cry. It wasn't one of the movie quality cries either. I was sobbing. Ugly sobbing. It was at that very moment that I thought of Chris and Doc Rob. My precious baby girl is resilient and I was too blind to see it. I was living in the moment, dealing with only what was in front of my face. I failed to look back and see how far she had come. Not how far we all had come, but how far SHE had come. She has grown so much on her own, by her own perseverance and I missed it. Until now.


She slipped, swam and giggled a few more times.





And finally reached the top of the giant mountain.



Paige went on a forward journey that day. A 47 foot journey of perseverance. (and some slipping, swimming and giggling too).

Her journey led me to look back at how far she had come. I can now see the meaning of resilience and perseverance, by simply looking at her beautiful blue eyes.

28 comments:

Dreaming again said...

ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!

microsmom said...

Stacy what a sweet story!! Go Paige!

Anne U. said...

That is so wonderful. Yay Paige!

Anonymous said...

Stacy, this is fantastic! What a boost of confidence for her, and look how strong she is! Thank you so much for posting these photos and for your post.

Stacey said...

You go girl! KICK BUTT!!!

Stephanie said...

All I have to say is YAY PAIGE!!!

rlbates said...

How wonderful!!!

twinsx2 said...

So very, very cool!

twinsx2 said...

Actually after re-reading the post and reviewing the photos, you deserve kudos too, Stacy. You LET her try. There's many who would have not let her try. I "think" I would have let my sons try but I'm not sure. I need to think about that one.

Helen Harrison said...

You are both incredibly brave Paige and Stacy!

Climb every mountain!!!!

Anonymous said...

Incredible!

Anonymous said...

Way to go Paige!!

Jake Norton said...

Paige (& Stacy),
Nice work on the climbing wall! You indeed climbed an Everest that day! It is amazing what perseverance, drive, and tenacity can get us through. And, as the Zen koan says: "When you reach the summit...keep on climbing."

Climb on!

-Jake Norton
MountainWorld Productions
www.mountainworldproductions.com

Susie Korbel said...

That's a really beautiful and moving story. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Cadymom said...

Tears in my eyes as you both conquered a mountain!

Cindy B.

Hannah's Mum said...

Oh wow! Way to go Paige!

Stacy I think we're all guilty of living in the hear and now with these kids and forgetting to look back on how far they've come despite everything they deal with.

I can understand totally, the ugly sobbing cry. Lots to cry over and such great things achieved by both Paige and you.

This would have been a great boost in Paige's self-esteem, and maybe you can equate future challenges with making it to the top of that wall.

Let Paige know that lots of people are very proud of her and we know she can overcome a heap more obstacles and keep accumulating great achievements in her life.

smalltowndoc said...

Stacy, You are a great mother to let your daughter climb out of her fears. You, knowing all the problems she has, were brave enough to let her try this. i do not know how many of us as parents, would let our kids do it especially after a slip. You are great. Paige - You are fantastic. Keep it up. smalltowndoc.wordpress.com

Jenny said...

Good for that teenager who saw that she could do more, and continue on. And way to go Paige!

Anonymous said...

Stacy, I held my breath! Yay for Paige! Go! Go!! Go!!!!

Michelle

terri w/2 said...

Awesome story, Stacy . .so what's next? Parachuting?

medrecgal said...

Another fantastic story...I can totally appreciate the title, too!

luminosity said...

Long time reader, admirer, but never really a commenter. This post, however, was just so great that I needed to say...something. Great story, but made all the more wonderful by the play of interaction (silently, more or less) between the three of you (Paige, you, the teenage kid) and you each had something going on in your own heads, which you articulated very well. I do hope you told paige how pleased you were...but I'm sure you did. :)

kate said...

Paige rocks, and so do you. What a wonderful post!

trine said...

wow symbolic climb!

I have a 4 yr old who was born at 25 weeks, so I can relate to both the anguish and the pride! well done Paige! (I have also just had another preemie, Henrik, born at 27 weeks this september...I think this will be the last preemie for me ;-)...)

all the best

trine

Anonymous said...

Way to go, Paige!

liz.mccarthy said...

Oh Stacy, you made me tear up! Go Paige! What great pictures! and how high up is that wall. Way to go Paige!

tbonegrl said...

beautiful.

Anonymous said...

That is so amazing :)))
Andrea