Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Thank You

Over the past few days I've typed and re-typed this blog post many times. I can't seem to find the right words to say what's on my mind and in my heart.

I have appreciated all of the emails that I've received. See, even that isn't sounding right. Appreciated? Does the meaning of that word really convey what I'm feeling? Is the word strong enough? I hope so.

I had always hoped that this blog would help someone that needed to not feel alone; someone who may be wondering why their child had not caught up and they were beyond the magic age of 2 or 3 or maybe someone who was dealing with raw emotions that were scary. But, the blog went way beyond my expectations which became evident by the number of emails I have received since going on hiatus.

Thank you.

Simple words-are they strong enough? There I go again. I'm not going to try to find any other words or else this post will never reach the blogosphere.

Thank you to everyone who has written to me. Please don't take my lack of response as a lack of appreciation. Please. I've run through a gamut of emotions and needed to let it all soak in. I am so thankful that the blog has helped so many and I still read those wonderful emails when I need to be reminded that there are good people out there.

What I was not prepared for when I started this blog was the anger and negativity that would be directed toward me and those who comment here. My skin has thickened over the past 2 1/2 years of blogging with each and every insult and rude comment that was thrown at me. But, that thickness becomes paper thin, still to this day, when the attacks are directed at others. It was easy to walk away from blogging to avoid that gut wrenching emotion that takes over my entire being when people start being nasty to each other.

Easy to walk away... yes. Easy to stay away... no.

I will be posting an entry from a guest blogger in the next few days. It was her story that brought me back to blogging. I am asking everyone to keep an open mind. Not many of my readers can say they have ever been in her shoes-not completely. You'll see why. Her words are important. Every parent of a preemie, especially preemie girls, should read her words carefully. Every pregnant woman should take note. Above all else, I am asking that everyone be kind to her. There will be topics in her post that warrant further discussion which I will gladly make a separate post so the drama will stay separate. I will not allow drama to be thrown her way!

21 comments:

tropicalg77 said...

I am looking forward to the guest post.

I am thankful that you have words again on your blog.

I am mom to Emma who I went in to labor with at 32 weeks but thankfully carried to 39 weeks, and Ethan who I went in to labor with at 23 weeks and carried until 32 weeks. I am also pregnant again 27 weeks and holding in!

Cora said...

We're glad to see you back. We've missed your voice in the preemie community.

medrecgal said...

Glad to see you've decided to return...I'll certainly be curious to see what pops up next, be it your post or an interesting guest blogger.

ThePreemie Experiment said...

Tropicalg77... I'll be crossing my fingers for you!

Cora... thank you!

medrecgal... thank you too!!

The new post will be up in a few days. I want to wait until people realize that the blog is back up so the next post won't be missed. There are many subjects within the next post that are important, in my opinion.

Sheila said...

Glad to see that the forces that conspired against your blog didn't win. Hope that knowing you will gladly shut down the conduit for hate will leave your blog a less tasty target.

Peace be with you..

Anonymous said...

Welcome back Stacy!

Helen Harrison

ThePreemie Experiment said...

Thank you Sheila and Helen! Glad to see you both back as well!!

nutmeg96 said...

Welcome back! Very glad you decided to return to the blog world.

And the haters suck. I removed anonymous commenting from my little blog as a result. It made the losers wander away.

Anne, Eliza Grace's mom said...

Welcome back! I look forward to reading your blog for a long time to come!

ThePreemie Experiment said...

Thank you nutmeg and Anne! Nice to see you both here!

Nancy Brown said...

HOORAY!!! I have been waiting so I figured a comment was in order.. LOVE YOUR GUTS

ThePreemie Experiment said...

Hi Nancy!!

Kelly said...

I am the mom of a 25-weeker, Mia, who is now 2 1/2. I found this blog while you were on hiatus and am looking forward to further posts. Thank you for coming back. Kelly

ThePreemie Experiment said...

Hi Kelly, so glad that you found your way here!

tbonegrl said...

Stacy, I missed you. This blog means a LOT to me. Especially now with our new diagnosis, I found myself re-reading the archives...

I'll take you in whatever form you're comfortable with coming back in!

KristieMcNealy said...

I'm so glad to see you back. I clicked through to you in my bookmarks on a total whim, and I was thrilled to find a new post :)

-Kristie

JoDee said...

I have been checking off and on for anything new and am very happy to see you back.

Catherine said...

I am glad you are back. THere are not enough blogs like yours that address the problems that having children with disabilities bring. I am glad that there are the uplifing stories and attitudes. Those who are not having those types of experiences and feelings are helped by those who are coping with tough times.

stockingup99 said...

Welcome Back

Anonymous said...

Thanks for coming back Stacy. I've been out of town for the past several weeks and was pleasantly surprised to see you up and running. I clicked onto to your site for "old times sake" from another blog. Glad you're back in business!

Anonymous said...

Stacy- I love your blog. I've been secretly reading it for a long time. I'm a premie who didn't catch up by age 2 and I probably never will. This blog gives me hope that I'm not alone. I can't wait to hear more about Paige.